Have you experienced self doubt?

You are not the darkness you endured.

You are the light that refused to surrender.

- John Mark Green

We all know that worry is future based, and therefore, it does not serve us to sit in a state of angst, envisioning scenarios that have not happened.

Do not worry, is one of the Reiki precepts, and by honouring the precepts in my daily life it has become easier to pull myself out of self doubt spirals, but it doesn’t mean that they do not happen.

I made a life changing decision, moving me away from certainty to turn to inner belief. I could no longer continue on a path that was so far removed from my spiritual values and sense of self. I found that Reiki helped me start a healing process, which allowed me to recognise how I needed to alignment my values for my own peace, clarity and ultimately my freedom, and this allowed me to recognise that I wanted to make space for others to heal themselves.

Although this is just the start of me fully embarrassing this journey of not only self discovery and alignment, but also what I can offer to others, I have found myself filled with self doubt, even though I have never been more certain that this is the most authentic path for me.

The expectation that everything would fall into place instantly was too high, and through this I have created suffering for myself, and those around me.

The support I have received has been unwavering, but still the self doubt crept in because of the instant gratification I had naively sort. I started to ask myself “What if I was wrong?” or the age old tormentor “What if I am not good enough?” and finally “What if I fail?” I think the last one banged the drum the loudest, because this journey means everything to me, this is who I am, and if I fail, what am I? What do I do? What is my purpose? Through tears and torment, I was reminded of the beautiful words of Erin Hanson “There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?” Every time, it makes me stop in my tracks. To take that negativity ‘fall’ and turn it to ‘fly’. So simple, so powerful, so very jaw dropping, and life challenging. And it brings me back to self belief, and it grounds me back to the precepts. Worry is a lack of belief. The universe will always provide opportunities for us to learn from, allowing us to grow, we will always face struggles and suffering, but these are our opportunities, and therefore I find acceptance, bringing us back to faith, that although we may not be able to explain at the time why certain situations and circumstances arise, it will all work itself out in the end, because the universe will always provide.

So on that note, just for today, do not worry.

Show up being unapologetically you, and stay present.

I hope this was helpful, it was a tough one to write, but as always, there is something cathartic in bearing your soul.

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